God's Love: Incomprehensible

This morning I woke....well, back up...as I was drifting off to sleep last night, I had some thoughts flooding my mind. I usually write, proofread, rewrite, and repeat steps several times before I share anything I write. So, be warned that I didn't do that today. I probably should, I realize. However, I am eager to start writing more in my blog. I am constantly writing, but I just haven't written any of it in my blog, which I started with a purpose-to encourage and build up people by sharing my experiences and thoughts. This post may be unorganized, maybe even off topic at times. That's okay because, as you will be reminded in the Scripture at the bottom of the post, it will reach someone--and if it reaches one person, then praise God. In the future, I will, as in the past, plan and organize my writings before sharing them.

May you be blessed!

Deuteronomy 7:9 (AMP)

"Know, recognize, and understand therefore that the Lord your God, He is God, the faithful God, Who keeps covenant and steadfast love and mercy with those who love Him and keep His commandments, to a thousand generations..."
~*~God's love and mercy goes on forever and He is faithful to keep all His promises to those who love Him AND keep His commandments.

Matthew 16:24 (AMP)

Then Jesus said to His disciples, If anyone desires to be My disciple, let him deny himself [disregard, lose sight of, and forget himself and his own interests] and take up his cross and follow Me [cleave steadfastly to Me, conform wholly to My example in living and, if need be, in dying, also].

If people may wonder what is different or peculiar about me, why I have a view of most things that is far from the normal views that others have, the reason is Jesus. I'm writing this piece on a "spur of the moment" basis, but I feel certain that I have an acceptable explanation for my way of life, or way of thinking-whatever you may label it. I was obedient to the Lord when He opened these doors to bring me to this place, so far from our "homeland" and what was our comfort zone. Though He has definitely blessed me in my obedience, I find myself unsure of my surroundings at times. I love certain aspects of this wonderful new life He has blessed my family with, but find that most often, it is just us and God here. We have acquaintances, we have those brothers and sisters God has given us here, yet when our life is hit with calamity or trials or holidays roll around--it is us and God. The great blessing in it all is that God taught me a couple of years ago that He is all we need. He kept me-held me-through some serious times of trials-trials that I cannot put into proper words of expression in this short blog, but have been slowly writing it out chapter by chapter. When I hurt the most, He would be the only One there to hold me and pick me up. He sent people into my life to bless me and help me. He was my shield when I came under attack. He transformed my life in such drastic measures that my life itself spoke to others that I was His daughter. As a result, I did become unpopular among the people who I was once cherished by. I won't claim I had many friends, but I did have a few dear people in my life-ones who slowly slipped away or began acting strangely around me. This is the time that He revealed Himself to me even more...and because He loved me so much, even when I was unlovable and faithless, and when I was alone and rejected,  I pour myself out to God and I'm never hesitant to do so or worried about what He's doing or going to do. I can love Him freely and without boundaries or fears. As I journey through each day - each week, each moment of life - I know He is with me and I am never alone. I see His face in everything. I feel His presence every moment. Whatever His plans are, I know they are great and perfect, just like His love for me. All of this is a beautiful thing for a girl who was once insecure, empty, broken, and hungry for love. God's love changed my life, transformed me from the inside out. He is not like humans who are nowhere to be found when you're in the deepest valley or battling your way through a wilderness. No, His love is absolutely perfect and He is the only One I am certain is the true lover of my life and soul. I'm so certain that I never question Him, His presence, His work, His plans....I pour my life out to Him so naturally and purely that I never think of Him as anything but my Father, my true and authentic BFF, and my King. If everyone else turns against me, if everyone else shuns me, if everyone else abandons me--it's okay. God loves me perfectly and made me just the way I am. He has shown me that all I need is Him. He loved me so much that I learned what true love was, to the point that His love caused all my insecurities to vanish. I consider it a joy to live for Him every moment of my life and to strive to be holy and acceptably display Him in my life, in my very heart.( Matthew 10:38And he who does not take up his cross and follow Me [cleave steadfastly to Me, conforming wholly to My example in living and, if need be, in dying also] is not worthy of Me. ) He called us who are His to live completely surrendered to Him. What did I really lose because of my constantly growing relationship with Him? I lost my old self. I lost people who didn't truly care for me, who don't even know how to love. I lost all the worldly things I formerly loved, but kept me in bondage, even unto physical and mental torment. I lost pride, perfectionism, depression, insecurity, shame, anxiety, fear of rejection, and a long list of other issues, none of which were good or positive. In short, I didn't really lose anything of value. I will continue to live my life completely surrendered to Him and if the whole world begins to hate me--I have Him and I will do His will and do it with boldness....if God is for me, who can be against me? If you are one who has considered me crazy or strange, you may be right from a world's point of view, but don't be fooled---it's Christ you are rejecting, shunning, and hating. If you are just a skeptical or unfaithful friend who has no time for brothers or sisters, it is Christ you don't have time for or are skeptical of and unfaithful to--for He commanded you to behave opposite of that. Praise God for His goodness, mercy, grace, faithfulness, and LOVE. I vow to live my life for Him and will serve Him in all pureness of heart---and I don't need a certificate to prove I'm a true servant and disciple--just look at my life, I invite you to. God is first! Jesus is truly my Lord. I only desire to walk like Him, talk like Him, and live like Him. That makes me unpopular and I know that. That's just one cost of being His disciple. No matter what I may suffer, even if I was to only suffer the rest of my days here, it would be small in comparison to what He suffered and it would be worth it for the eternity I would spend with Him afterward. I pray that, even if I lose people in my life because of my faith, that God would continue to prepare my heart, reveal things to me, and give me a great measure of discernment. I pray to only see with spiritual eyes and to have all my thoughts held captive by Him. I hope that I will always be courageous, no matter what I face, and be bold in speaking His Truth. I have struggled with speaking boldly at times, but He is making me stronger. I look forward to each day because I know it is another with Him, a day He has ordained and planned long ago, so it is a day of importance and value. We don't always understand everything in our lives, but we can be at peace if we would just know that God has good plans for us, but His thoughts are so much higher than our thoughts. His will for our lives is beautiful and full of His joy. If we have Him in our hearts, we can always have joy in any circumstance. For those of us who pray constantly and are often saddened by the conditions we see daily all around us, remember this Scripture below. Continue to seek Him and follow Him, He is working through us even when it may not seem so. His Word is alive and it is powerful, it does not proceed from our mouths with no purpose-it is reaching His purposed destination. 

Isaiah 55:6-116 Seek, inquire for, and require the Lord while He may be found [claiming Him by necessity and by right]; call upon Him while He is near. 7 Let the wicked forsake his way and the unrighteous man his thoughts; and let him return to the Lord, and He will have love, pity, and mercy for him, and to our God, for He will multiply to him His abundant pardon. 8 For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways, says the Lord. 9 it bring forth and sprout, that it may give seed to the sower and bread to the eater, 11 So shall My word be that goes forth out of My mouth: it shall not return to Me void [without producing any effect, useless], but it shall accomplish that which I please and purpose, and it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it.For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts. 10 For as the rain and snow come down from the heavens, and return not there again, but water the earth and make 

Prayerfully consider where your heart is, how you truly display Jesus in your everyday life. Don't get caught up with life and forget about God; He will never just forget about you, and you will need Him. Take time to be kind and think about others. Be sure to thank the Lord for all that you have, for it did come from Him and all things belong to Him. And, please, remember the teaching of Jesus everyday. If you will remind yourself daily of His very words, you won't have the desires of the worldly things....to look or act like the world. In all things, in every decision to be made, pray and ask God for His desire to be revealed...that should keep your life in check. We live by faith, not by emotions. 

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